This mind is by no means idle, but definitely has become my greatest admiration these past weeks. It became my constant companion, yet my worst enemy. It's strange to think that something like a brain could be the parallel of drugs, but for me it has been.
I have felt unable to lay my many thoughts before God and say, these are all yours, the good and the bad. Please sort through and let me see only truth. I am still dealing with the position of saying - God, you know more than me and I turn to you for logic, not my human mind that can only think so far into things.
I'm afriad of what I will miss that I can discover myself by submitting all thoughts to a being I have felt, but cannot see. Trust, He whispers to me. Am I really dumbing myself down by surrendering or would I be the foolish one to think my own mind so great?
It's almost comical the things I can consider to be a sacrifice from me to Him after all that He has done for me both visible and invisible.