The possibility of the impossible.

If you study a pattern and set out to
change the pattern with the solution
that you have conjured up is it really
a solution or just your own perception
of the solution. perception.
So how could there be any real, legitimate
solutions if not guided by a being that has
more logic than any of us could manage to
grasp.

Incapable of seeing a bigger picture than
the picture I see as the biggest I am actually
unable to manipulate any situation to my liking
without it failing due to my lack of knowledge of
another factor.

The equation mind will always go in circles, because
it will never have all the variables it needs to come to
the correct answer.

That's when it rolls back into the 360 of point A and just
being alright and living. Could it really be that simple
though? Why would certain minds be capable of thinking
past the simple if there were not thoughts that needed to
be thought beyond that?

[SIDE NOTE]
had Pandora on and the song 'It's Simple by Rose Hill Drive'
came on as I was writing. Happenstance? Hah

What thoughts could need to be thought though to find
productivity that have not already been though?

God is laughing at me right now. I just know it and I don't
blame Him.

My idol mind.

This mind is by no means idle, but definitely has become my greatest admiration these past weeks. It became my constant companion, yet my worst enemy. It's strange to think that something like a brain could be the parallel of drugs, but for me it has been.

I have felt unable to lay my many thoughts before God and say, these are all yours, the good and the bad. Please sort through and let me see only truth. I am still dealing with the position of saying - God, you know more than me and I turn to you for logic, not my human mind that can only think so far into things.
I'm afriad of what I will miss that I can discover myself by submitting all thoughts to a being I have felt, but cannot see. Trust, He whispers to me. Am I really dumbing myself down by surrendering or would I be the foolish one to think my own mind so great?
That's obvious.

It's almost comical the things I can consider to be a sacrifice from me to Him after all that He has done for me both visible and invisible.